i did my valentines day video but PRINCESS hates it, that is not good i will have to do better next time. SHE said my outfit was a grandmothers lingerie. i will pick more of a sissy outfit for my next video. i have been watching PRINCESS videos for the last several hours and feel helpless and weak. i am sending PRINCESS $200 in the mail tomorrow. But i still begged HER to take another $100 right out of my account because i like when SHE takes my money it makes me feel like the hopeless sissy that i am. i can not fight back against PRINCESS. i have to do everything SHE tells me or SHE will crush me between HER fingers. i just called PRINCESS and proclaimed to HER girlfriend that i am happy to be PRINCESS’S slave. i also told HER how pathetic i am. PRINCESS made me admit to her girlfriend that i have not had sex in over 15 years now and i have a curiously small penis which could never satisfy a women. My only sex should be with a blow up doll, or sucking a big dick. i have the smallest penis of all of PRINCESS’S slaves so i will never have sex again. HER girlfriend laughed a lot at me. i am going to call PRINCESS back now and tell HER i did my journal. i love when SHE reads it. i will probably even beg HER to take more money.