i’ve been begging and begging Princess to spare me from the laser on my face before it’s too late. But she wants it already done and overwith so i can’t even ask again. The first appointment has already been set though and i can’t get in any sooner than June 3rd. i’m sure i could be suckered so easily if She took me there Herself. But i feel so guilty since, like DDR pointed out, i will be the one actually driving myself there to do it. i am soooooo conflicted!!!!! i know how many terrible things Princess could do to me if i pissed Her off. But She can’t really force me to do it. And She isnt even enticing me with promises of any irresistable rewards. i will still be all alone at the end of the day–only with even less chance of ever getting back to an even half-way normal life.

And speaking of normal, i’m still paying the penalty for once trying to find real women to date on www.date.com, which is where i first used this name “David1962Dayton” and actually did date a couple women i met on there. But now i have humiliating pics and an embarrassing profile on there which does get responses of laughter and ridicule from time to time. They rejected pics in full drag, but i have 3 with just makeup and no wig and one with my mustache and bikini lines over my shoulders and a glossy substance on my face (which i’m sure they would have rejected if they knew what it was).