$200 from the baboon
hahahaha check out doomed brit’s last letter. I am not sure if I should be offended or feel complimented. hahahahaha
“i hate you, i hate you, i hate you.
The worst decision my life was calling you all those years ago.
Since then i lost all my savings and self respect, i’m scared to have a relationship with anyone in case they find out my dirty secret, i drink vast amounts to blot out the thought that my freakiness is available for the whole world to see, i have bizarre fantasies “ that will never happen “ of you castrating me.
my life is very simple. I’m a nervous wreck thinking about you, so i drink to forget you, but drinking makes me think of you more, so i become even more of a nervous wreck, so i drink more, etc. etc.
I HATE YOU
P.S. I don’t think you’ll post this as it will scare away your “fresh meat”.
All I can say is HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHA!
and you don’t really hate ME..you WUV ME for destroying you! For DESTROYING MICHAEL PAIGE and making you THE MUTANT!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!!
I feel like a proud mama. Awww..look at the mutant I created! All bundled up in psychosis and guilt. Wearing a little diapey of self loathing. Hush little baby let’s hear you cry. Mama’s gonna bake your brain to smell it fry.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA
Oh here’s a special message for randy mersch who sent ME another $300 last night! Right on schedule, randy! randy..randy..randy..randy..ahuh…ahuh…ahuh…ahuh..randy! randy! randy! randy DRINK! randy DRINK! ahuh ahuh ahuh!
randy has turned into the biggest nutterbutter! he totally gets aroused listening to Me say his name over and over in evil whispery little voices and cooing “ahuh” in a devilish way. he also sits there shooting shot after shot in hopes of hearing Me give him a “high-5” over the phone as his reward. hahahaha OMG he is a hoot! he started out being kinda wacky..but now his brain is soooo scrambled!
Wow. he IS insane.
How are YOU feeling about his email? i mean YOU weren’t sure, what to make out of that letter. do YOU just leave it and keep on being amused about what YOU have done to him over the years or are YOU kind of pissed for what he wrote?
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Princess I do not understand Doomed Brit at all, first he saids he’s a queer and likes to wear bra’s while he suck’s cock’s, and he love’s you and want’s you to cut off his ball’s. And then all of a sudden he said’s he’s not queer and he hate’s you and he want’s his ball’s back! Well the way I see it ether your a queer little faggot ALL THE WAY and take all the shit that is dumped on you or shout up about it. It’s like on West Side Story, if your a Jet then your Jet all the way, get it brit? if your a fag then your a fag all the way or forget it.
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When he says he hates Princess, his feelings of self-loathing are coming out. he hates himself for being so weak, for having low self-esteem, for being a loser. he hates what’s become of his life. he hates what Princess has turned him into. Sometimes, even the most hard-core sub hangs on to a tiny little bit of self-worth, and every once in a while the sub will reflect on his ruined life and lash out at the Domme. It’s like one last, futile attempt at trying to save himself from the inevitable. If i know Princess, it won’t be long before She’ll strip him of that last little shred of dignity, so he has no more fight left in him, and he’s accepted his fate, and will never lash out again. She’s really just helping him become who he really is inside. One day he’ll realize it, and thank Her, like so many others have done.
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i am reading these old entries of Your journal, and i find them so delightly destructive.
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