More fixation on HER Beauty last night. And more lying in bed just helpless as all of HER sound bites echo in my head and seeing HER image that is burned into my brain.

Started more fixation this morning but i had to stop almost immediately. It just became too much for me to withstand. i think i need to take some time off from fixation. Not give up. But just some time to regroup.

 Last Thursday night i began fixating on my video assignments. i got through “MY Methods”, watching about 30 times. Tried to memorize HER movements too by replaying a small segment to capture one of HER moves over and over and over – like about a hundred times. Started with the second video but only got about 8 reps in before i was interupted.

Yesterday i completed fixation on second video. Much the same approach. After watching 20 time, i went back and did hyper-reps on movements – HER mind melting movements. Certain phrases SHE says are matched to a movement. So trying to memorize HER every move also makes me hear HER say the same thing over for a hundred times.

Now, HER moves are burned into my eyes. HER phrases are still echoing in my brain.

“Make you MY slave”
“Join the throng”
“you can’t stop thinking about ME”
“Let PRINCESS wrap HER pretty hands around your neck”
“get under your skin”
“make you cave in”

After fixating i was feeling weird. i guess “dreamy” – or “sleepy” might explain. or “exhausted”.