Got $400 from doomedbrit today and talk to his pathetic ass for a bit on the phone. he was quite brainwashed today and was groveling like a little fiend. I received a suprise $200 from deadman dan. he said he got Christmas money from his dad and thought it was appropriate that I have it. $100 from a guy in sweden who I watched do funny tricks on his webcam–he’s paid Me a few times in the past. A female submissive sent $100 amazon gift certificate which I received today. I have not yet thought of an appropriate name to call her.

One of My Xmas gifts from My girlfriend was a 12 gallon fish aquarium and all the plants and stuff for it. Well she originally got a 25 gallon one but that seemed too much headache to Me, so we exchanged it for smaller. I just had 2 bettas before. So anyway, We went fish hunting today. Oh how confusing, neither of us know anything about fish. I am just positive that we will wind up putting the wrong fish in and they will all end up killing each other or commiting suicide. We decided to write down the breeds we liked and come back and read up on them then buy them in the next few days instead. Well what is FUCKING weird is..I’ve had this one red betta for like a year. It was in perfect health. While we were gone looking for fish MY fucking psychotic betta chewed his own fins and the majority of his tail off and I mean down to the nub practically! he has NEVER done that before. he had been fed and the water was fine and the other fish was perfect. I KNOW he did it today because before we left we were looking at them and she was joking around talking baby talk to them saying we are going to buy you some new friends. I looked right at that damned fish before we left and he was beautiful!! It’s like he was psychic and knew I was bringing in more competition or perhaps he was so overwrought with jealousy he decided life wasn’t worth living. lol he looks so fucking yucky now. I’d expect such stupidity out of a male. It was kinda eerie though, like his fishie senses read MY mind. Now I’m all creeped out by My little mutated all-knowing fish. I wanted to throw him out in the snow now that he’s grody, but My friend was like “shame on you, you don’t throw away living things just because they get ugly.” heehee really?