am more ruined then ever. Last week i sent PRINCESS $200 cash and SHE bought a new printer with my Best Buy card on line. SHE bought it while i was talking to HER on the phone. i was begging HER not to do it but SHE just laughed at me and said what are you going to do about it. Of course i said nothing. After SHE ordered it using my credit card SHE made me thank HER for doing so along with thanking HER for taking my $200. i am already about $15000-$20000 in debt. SHE thinks that is not enough. PRINCESS also wants to remodel a couple of different rooms. So this week i had to update my Lowes card and apply for a new Home Depot card that i had cancelled a year or so ago. Since it is summer time i was also tricked by PRINCESS into sending HER a bunch of juicy steaks for bar-b-queing. i put that into the mail today. PRINCESS has me so weak and wanting of HER attention that SHE is making me do all kinds of things to be in HER good graces. It is not really working either every time i call PRINCESS SHE tells me to call back because SHE is busy with someone or something. i not only never get to be with HER but i am hardly able to talk to HER. i feel like a phone cuckold i am the lowest, sissiest, easiest, weakest slave of all. SHE has me totally wrapped around HER pinkie. i will do anything to please HER. i will continue to obey HER demands in order to please HER. When i gave HER my Lowes credit card number on the phone i had to strip naked put it in my mouth like a little puppy, call HER on the phone and wimper then give HER the number. i begged and cried to PRINCESS to not make me get the HOME DEPOT card and to not spend too much money on the remodel but it will all be to no avail. SHE just laughed at me and told me i loved it and that my little winkie was getting hard at just the thought of HER spending all my money. (of course SHE is right but i tried to deny it). SHE also told me that i should stop begging and trying to stop HER, because SHE had never listened to any of my wishes, so what would make me think that SHE would listen now. How very true that is. SHE eventually had me begging HER to take my use my card and admit what a wimp i am obeying HER every command as i quickly promised to apply for the new card at Home Depot. i am also very afraid of talking to SIERRA’S STEVIE because i have been reading all of HER journal entries and they are brilliant just like RPINCESSES. i know that if i speak to HER i will quickly be under HER spell and that will put me in further debt as PRINCESS continues to remodel my life in many different ways.